This post will be quite short. I just want to share the Music Videos which have accompanied me since the period of resignation planning until the early months at new workplace.
- “Mystery of Life” (2006) by the cast of Ribbon no Kishi The Musical
I always prefer certainty over speculation and the thought of having a job other than the one I have been having for years is really scary. What will happen to me? What if I got unemployed? What if I like not my new workplace? The future was really scary and I was really frightened to leave my old company. But there is this part of this song that encouraged me:
wakaranai kara tanoshii no yo
wakaranai kara ikite yuku no
oshienaide oshienaide jibun de sagasu kara
Mystery of Life!
Because I don’t know, it’s fun
Because I don’t know, I keep on living
Don’t tell me, don’t tell me, I’ll find it on my own
Mystery of Life!
“You know what? Maybe it will be fun, this leapt into unknown territory.” It kind of eased my aversion to uncertainty.
2. “Wakain da shi” (2017) by Morning Musume ’17
This MV is the last MV for Kudo Haruka as a member of Morning Musume. In a sense, she made a daring decision almost similar to mine; she decided to graduate from the idol group. The whole song talked about being brave in facing the future because “you are young anyway (wakain da shi)”. “Maybe it is right. I am still young. I still have time. The magnitude of the impact I will be facing if I quit today is far smaller than if I quit in my old days. Let’s get a taste of resigning!”, those were what I thought when watched this MV that time.
3. “Hanya Lihat ke Depan” (2016) by JKT48
This song accompanied me in my early months of working at the new place. I know it sounds ridiculous, but I will not deny that I got stressed out having to fit to a new environment. This song was really relevant for me and I listened to it in a loop for encouragement. I prefer the JKT48 version to AKB48 version (前しか向かねえ) because it sounds less like a lovers’ break-up song and more about facing new reality.
Hanya lihat ke depan ‘tuk terakhir kalinya
Biarkan ku tampil dengan keren
Walau aku masih takut
Pada tempat yang baru
Tidak ada kata mundur
Gotta face forward
At least, in the end
Let me go out with dignity
My new world
Scares me, but
There’s no going back now
This part of the song really speak to me.
So, what do you think? I hope they can also encourage you in your turbulent days.